So, I have determined to update my blog every day, even if it is just a quick little something. I mean, I have this thing set up, I may as well use it right?
Well, I do have one story to share, and I guess this is an adventure, but one I would rather do without. I mentioned in my previous update that there is a guy who is persuing me. It's not really that big a deal except that he seems to have a REALLY hard time understanding the concept of NO.
For the past semester and a half, I've been getting rides with this guy down to Orem for school. He arranges his schedule so that he is in my drawing class, and he convices me to join his sculpting class. At the time of convising, he wasn't quite so...what's the phrase? Well, he was able to keep his interest hidden better. I also really just enjoyed the teacher so I ended up getting into the class.
It can be a long ride from Heber to Orem and back again (that sounds like it could be a book title) so we end up talking a lot. I tell him my life story, he tells me his. As it turns out, we get along really well. He's a very superstitious character and highly believes that as a dragon he gets along with me very well because I am a snake. These are according to the Chinese Zodiac. Although I do enjoy reading up on my daily horroscopes every once in a while, that doesn't mean that I believe that my fate is dictated by these.
So, he starts to present arguments showing how well we get along and then he starts mentioning how he is an awesome guy and a real catch. I remind him of the fact that I currently have a boyfriend and he responds saying that he isn't the "jeaolous type" I tell him that I am going on a mission and can't afford any distractions. He doesn't understand but agrees to let me be. Not even a week later he is back again asking for my attention. It's starting to get to the point that I say no and he backs off for about a minute, then he's back again. >,<
Finally, I am sick of it. He keeps telling me that he cares for me and that he'd care for me. Great. I don't want him to! I see him as a friend, but I feel that slowly dwindling off into a nemesis.
Ok, so here's the part where I come clean. I considered it. For about a week I seriously considered what would happen if I were to get into a relationship with him. It is an incredibly tempting idea to let yourself be adored by someone. I thought long and hard about it, prayed, fasted, the whole shebang. Finally I decided that I really didn't want this with him. It's just so very very tempting to have someone who tells you that they care about you, let care about you. It has been so hard living without Seth constantly reminding me of his love. But that's just it. The only reason I even considered this with my friend, is because of how much I miss Seth. I know that doesn't really make too much sense, but that is how I felt. I had found someone with a fraction of the love Seth had for me, and it was so very tempting to accept that. I miss it, okay?
So, I tell him so and give him an ultimatum. Because he has seemed to forget all of my previous responses and because I can't having him continue to play these games with me, I decide that it is time for all of this to come to an end. Either he accepts my decision, or I am no longer his friend. Needless to say, I have been finding different people to ride with to Orem. Now I only see him during the classes that we both have.This has helped a LOT. But that isn't really why I'm writing all of this today. If that had really been the end of it, I wouldn't be telling you this pathetic story.
No. The real reason I am writing this is because he asks me the other day if I would be his valentine...
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This maddens me to no end! I refuse outright and have been ignoring him since. Since the classes we share are art classes, it is actually very easy to avoid him entirely. I have a core group of friends that I made in each class and hang out with them. Today he asks me what is wrong and I tell him exactly what it is. I had given him an ultimatum before and I was sticking with it. I bring up the valentine thing and he says that he was just joking...right...I totally believe that... :P I feel like kicking him in the head, but instead I remind him of my ultimatum and tell him that he no longer has the right to joke about such things. I have too much school and work and other things to worry about without having him and his stupid little sarcasms to take up space in my mind.
He puts on this little look and says okay, and that he "understands". Where was his understanding earlier when I started telling him to lay off? I'll tell you where, it was nonexistent. An empty set as it were. Oh, I don't believe that I mentioned he is 13 years older than me. Yep, and he has a 6 year old son who is currently living with the mother.
I have determined that I shall keep silence with him unless he asks me direct questions, and then I shall keep the answers short. This treatment shall continue until I feel that he finally understands what the word NO means.
Geh, these things make me so tired. -_- Go away, go away, don't come back another day.
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